Four years ago I had a choice to make. A very important choice. However, I chose to not vote and make my voice heard as I had been so very tired and thought, my one vote could never make a difference. Besides, there was no way educated people would vote a reality show personality to become President of the Great United States. Well, when you multiply that by 1 million or so that thought the same thing and we get to the part of the story that we are at now. You know, the one where the audience in the movie theater realizes that the person that was put in power by not voting is ruling the country. (Cue suspense music or perhaps the theme to the Twilight Zone?) This coming November, I will vote, and vote loudly. I will be studying the actions of our public officials and politicians. Actions will get my vote. I started this post a few days ago and then needed to stop and breathe and digest what was going on in the world. Because I did not vote four years ago, what could my one vote have done?
With my one vote, things could be much different. The world might still be in a war against a virus but nothing compared to the turmoil that is unfolding daily and on national television. Last night, as I watched TV with Hubby, military police from the District of Columbia, shot tear gas into crowds of protesters that had their arms in the air shouting “Hands up – Don’t Shoot!” It horrified me. These were humans, not monsters or villains, but people trying to get their voices heard. They held BLACK LIVES MATTER and pictures of George Floyd as it was and still is their right. The Constitution of the United States guarantees our rights to assembly peacefully to protest.
“The First Amendment guarantees freedoms concerning religion, expression, assembly, and the right to petition. It forbids Congress from both promoting one religion over others and also restricting an individual’s religious practices. It guarantees freedom of expression by prohibiting Congress from restricting the press or the rights of individuals to speak freely. It also guarantees the right of citizens to assemble peaceably and to petition their government“
“I am your president of law and order”
What I witnessed last night was an act of dictatorship and not someone wanting peace but calling for discord and dissension and thinly throwing in peace and good people to make it more digestible. It was horrifying! Two days ago I phoned my son and asked him to please be safe and to stay out of the protesting as I was afraid for his life as I always have been. My son is Hispanic but has dark skin and at times has worn dread locks or a short ‘fro as my son was blessed with beautiful, dark curly hair. My son, is a gentle giant, probably my fault. I didn’t let my son’s fight each other and was often trying to break them up. If my sons want to protest, that is their right. It is not their right to be gassed or to have rubber bullets shot at them as I witnessed on live television while the president spoke. By the way to my sons, if you were to get taken to jail for protesting in this movement, I would bail you out and know that my spirit will be there with you!!!
“As we speak, I am dispatching thousands and thousands of heavily armed soldiers, military personnel and law enforcement officers to stop the rioting, looting, vandalism, assaults and the wanton destruction of property.” donald trump June 1, 2020 on live television.
Another fact about me is that I am an Episcopalian and proud. I converted in the mid-90’s when my sister had started going to St. Paul’s in Pomona, CA as they were progressive and had an openly gay reverend. I will never forget one Sunday as I tried to sneak out of the back to the church, as I always sat in the last rows as to not disturb anyone with my new baby. Father Nyback stopped his sermon and told me to stop as I was taking a child of God out of that house. In his house, that church in Pomona, ALL were welcome, even if they cried out in hunger, like my child. So, yesterday, when I saw him holding that Bible and standing in front of that church, I went to my office (bathroom) and cried. How can someone have so much hatred in them and be so cruel and then hold the words of God in his hands for a photo op? What I witnessed was no less an act. It was an act of a school yard bully who is showing his true colors by trying to snuff out what does not agree with him. Again, my one vote might have changed this.
Mr. trump if your childhood dreams were to grow up and be a villain, you have certainly marked your place in the History of the US in your 3 short years as president, but not for being great, or beautiful or fantastic. The United States is not some reality show that some lucky contestant is going to get a prize at the finale. Really donald, it is time for some one to reverse your catch phrase and use it on you, “You’re fired!” Please if you are going to utter anything else, sir, please utter the statement “BLACK LIVES MATTER“. I know you won’t just as you won’t wear a mask. Just as you won’t call off your goons. Yes, you sir I fully blame you for what is happening right now. When you made fun of Colin Kaepernick so publicly. I cried then as I knew that it was not going to get better. You see this presidency made me face skeletons in my closet that I had not wanted to revisit. However, because he was so vocal about being a pussy grabber and publicly making sexist remarks to women in power or just about anyone who spoke out against him, I could feel what was coming. Because of people like him, women and girls like me were silent and hurting as all the news was like getting salt poured into old wounds. I worked in the late 80’s and early 90’s when men ruled the offices. I cringe and my heart tightens sometimes when my Hubby sneaks up behind me to touch my neck or arm or kiss me. I am not afraid of Hubby only reliving long hidden memories. I used to be good at hiding those things but now I can’t. Thank you donald for that. Now millions can’t either. My one vote…
It scared me on Friday as I watched the news and could see the events unfolding. I remember telling Hubby that I was worried for our Armed Forces that are lead by the president. Even though I threw out an exasperated “Oh my gosh, kids are going to have to make a choice to gas and police American protesters.” To me any one under 50 is a kid and I am speaking of the Armed Forces of the United States of America. Then to have to watch it on TV side-by-side, Three days later, as he spoke about “taking decisive action.” My Dad used to say something about talking out of both sides of your mouth well, Hubby and I as well as millions of American’s witnessed the donald be the Master of Talking Out of Both Sides of His Mouth or maybe my Dad might have meant talking out of one’s ass…Hmmm? My one vote may have kept this from happening…maybe your one vote will as well.
To you dear reader, where ever in the world you are on this June 2, 2020, peace be with you. To my friends and family that did not know how I felt about this situation, now you know. Even though I may not agree with many of your opinions or values, I will offer you the same respect you give me…period. However, if you choose to keep hiding behind a political party instead of what is right and humane, we don’t need to be friends, really. George Floyd a human, was murdered (executed), in front of an audience, asking for kindness when he gasped, “I can’t breathe”. If you, my friends, still want to blame political parties and now organizations because you are not a sheep, so you say, then again we do not need to be friends.
Thank you dear reader for getting this far and for the visit. May you have a beautiful, peaceful day. Be someones light, someones joy today. Hugs to everyone, really, if I could hug the world, I would…