Hey there and hello! It is Saturday or “caturday” for you cat fanciers. Heck every day is caturday here at our cave. Below is the one and only, Miss Taco Belle.
So, enough about my kitty, today is January 16, 2021 and here in the Coachella Valley, we had warm, spring like weather yesterday and it was wonderful. My bones were not as noticeable and I have been sleeping better than I have in a few months. Just when I think I can’t bare another year here in the valley, Mother Nature sends Spring-like weather to make me eat my thoughts. It was around 80 degrees during the day and a chilly, but comfortable 50 degrees at night. Some of my time has been spent in the yard soaking up sun and gardening. The hummingbirds that have been guarding the feeder buzz around as I photographed the new flowers in the garden.
It has been almost two years since I had the discectomy of L4 – L5. Am I better, not really, and that is okay as I am still here on terra firma as sometimes during the last few years I thought I would never see was my 50th year and now I am almost two months away from the next number. Now I have time to recover and hopefully get stronger. I know the pain will never go away but now that I am learning to not fight it, but go with it, I have actually noticed that I am feeling better, at least my mind is. Anyhow, since it has been too difficult to sit at my computer, I spent the last few days tinkering with ideas and such and prepping my backyard for Spring, although it looks like Spring has sprung!
Gardening is really relaxing and probably the closest thing to meditating for me…
Also, Hubby has brought home some pretty fruits and vegetables. I have been cooking more and yesterday I had a fail. Sadly, the marinara sauce I made I added the full can of tomato paste and it sucked! I feel bad that I wasted those meatballs but practice makes perfect and I know what I will do with them the next time I try to make marinara sauce. I did take photos of the fruit as I have been working on new ideas for shirts and tote bags. I have always wanted to give out gifts using my photos and now I am getting closer to doing that.
It has been rough these past two years. I haven’t worked since the day before my surgery and now knowing that finally, someone believed me and I was approved for disability. I have spent a few days looking at the online college catalogue as now I can and not worry about having to struggle with pain and punching a clock again. Do I miss the daily grind? Yes and Hell NAW!!! No, really, I do miss having coworkers and having goals and tasks. It kept me focused a bit better, even with the pain. Who knows, maybe I can study for a new career for this last part of my life. At least now, I know that I can take classes from the comfort of my bed or couch and that is a good thing. Maybe I can finally take an art or photography class as I know my photos can be better but really, Every one is a critic, right?
I am sure that my mind is clearing up as I move farther from that Topamax induced haze. I don’t feel as scattered and angry as I did even with the daily pain and struggles. I have continued walking and the graph of my daily activity rises and falls rapidly, depending on my pain levels and I guess mood. Most of December, I hardly walked any extra steps and today I just walked for twenty minutes (back and forth across my living room and kitchen). Although keeping my eating habits in check has been rough, I have not lost or gained any weight and that is a good thing. It has been cold but I have been using our living room and stairs to work out. This morning for the first time I started before my exercise alarm went off. I know now, that somedays are going to be not so productive and other days will be productive.
Speaking of my eating habits, I am trying the fasting (intermittent) but not whole heartedly. We have been going to bed around 6 PM and it makes it easy to follow the fasting schedule, according to some of the articles that I have read. What has been hard is not getting up and snacking or drinking pots of coffee with flavored cream. However, I started drinking it black and must say, I crave the bean juice even more now. Hmmm, maybe the cream was diluting the caffeine? Speaking of coffee, time to take a break.
To you dear reader, where ever you are, I hope you are finding things to make you smile or forget about current events, even for a moment. Where ever you are going today, I hope you get there safely. Hugs to you and you and YOU.